For a long time I thought that I needed to be someone or something else. Now, after many heartbreaking experiences, I have firmly decided to just be me. Yes...I know many people set out on the noble trek to find oneself, and most succumb to failure during this experience, but I think I will succeed.
- Step One: Cleanse My Created-Self From Myself. Sounds simple, right? Wrong! I have this "image" that I created many years ago to protect myself and feel now is the time to let it go. Those that have the privilege to work with me see this image everyday. He is narcissistic, egotistical, loud, obnoxious, annoying, and cheesy. For those that enjoy that "side" of me, I hate to break it to you, but that person needs to die. Dead, as never to be born again, because I am so very tired of keeping that person alive. It is a beast that takes too much of my energy, and frankly, makes me come off as a jerk. I can not tell you how many people, that meet that person, think I am one of the biggest jerks in existence.
- Step Two: Surround Myself With A Positive Support Structure. I all ready have many friends and associates that would love to help with this, if only I would let them in. This step also incorporates my environment, let it be work or home life, I need to fully comment to it.
- Step Three: Breath And Live Free. This one is going to be EXTREMELY hard... I have been conditioned for so long to wager my merit against other's perceptions, and change my values, ideas, dreams to suit their's. I am to live for me! When the time comes, and I know it will, that things get "rough", I just need to take a dreep breath and realize I am better and above that. In the end, I realize all this is going to be driven by my desire for change, God's strength, and patience.
To Be Continued...
(Meaning as, I am sure, future blogs will update and incorporate this path currently being taken.)
“Faith is not simply a patience that passively suffers until the storm is past. Rather, it is a spirit that bears things - with resignations, yes, but above all, with blazing, serene hope.” Corazon Aquino
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